The more you own and fill your own space, the more you discover how much more you are than you thought you were.
As you get used to your Daily Practice of turning within and running your energies, things you learn in the Core Spiritual Practice Training, the more you discover the Infinite parts of your true Self.
Physicists, biologists, even the AMA admit that there are some benefits to meditating; reducing stress, easing concentration, lowering cortisol levels, etc.
The more you (body, mind, emotions) experience the You (Infinite Being) “inside”, that part that is the real You, the more the two aspects can and want to co-operate; operate together.
I know the use of “you” gets confusing, so I use you for body-mind-emotions-personality, and You for the real You, Spirit, Infinite Being, the You that breathes life-force, dynamism into the cells and fiber of your physical being.
Body-personality self is the part that society says is who you are. It is part the DMV photographs. But you know that your loved ones are more than that, and you know that you are too.
The more you turn within, the more you discover the amazing, detailed, fantastic aspects of your very own Self/Soul/Spirit.
There is a lot of pressure these days to multi-task, to spread yourself too think, to have a lot of interests and diverse commitment; there is a lot of pressure to dissipate oneself to the point where the most common sensation is scattered, maybe even dizzy, spacey feeling.
But the more you turn within in this energy practice of a meditation, the more You you discover.
If you could touch the face of Divinity in this moment, would you want to?
If you could experience yourSelf as Infinite, not in an ego way but in a real way, would you want to?
If you could contribute to world peace in a real way, would you want to?
Challenges to Turning Within
- There is no There there.
- It does not feel good.
- It’s scary.
There is no There there.
Many of us are so “other” and “outer” oriented that turning within can feel blank, or boring at the beginning. “There’s no there there.” That is a great place to begin, and a great sign that this practice will serve you.
Think of it like having been out in the bright summer sunlight and going inside a cabin with all the windows covered. At first it is just pitch black and you can’t see anything. But over time your sight adjusts and you start to be able to see large shapes and outlines like the couch is there, a doorway is there. And the longer you are within, the more detail you can discern – the couch has a floral pattern on the fabric, and 3 pillows, the door opens to a library, and the like.
The more you turn within and go into that space, the more detail you discover and can experience, and the more accurate your reading of the space becomes.
Early on you may think you see a unicorn painting on the wall, but the more time you spend getting to know the place, the more you can verify those impressions, and get certain about what’s there.
And what if turning within is not as finite as it sounds?
Turning within a building would be finite because even if it is big, it is finite, in physical reality.
But turning within you, within You is Infinite You, with no bounds.
The more you turn within the more you meet the Infinite cosmos – within.
You know how we keep hearing that all the answers are found within? This is that within. The within that holds all the information of the universe, from this and every other dimension, all your spiritual answers and powers, right here, right now. Within You.
It Does Not Feel Good
It is normal to discover the pain, insecurity, disappointments, heart aches that made being outer-oriented so attractive and The Answer in the first place.
Many people have taken up the cause of being of service to others and stopping Monsanto and Rocking the Vote because they would rather control the outer world than deal with their own inner world. All of these things are worthwhile activities, but that are not a substitute for turning within.
All change, world peace, prosperity, starts from within.
When you participate in these activities because they are righteous, or you are righteous, and people should do these things, then you are not actually contributing to world peace – you are contributing to world judgment and control.
However, when you have made peace with the little you that is scared and therefore wants to control every little thing about you and about the world; when you have loved that part out of competition and into cooperation, then you are able to contribute to world peace no matter what you do, making whatever you do a more potent contribution.
The scariest part of all this is facing your fears. The fear of not finding anything there inside you; fear that you are empty, a hallow shell, or fear that you are really a bad person, or that you’re really weak, or evil or whatever your big fear is.
One spoiler alert about this – there is no new sin under the sun. There is nothing you have done that is unforgivable. There is no “hopeless case” possible. There is no thing that you have done that you feel you cannot tell anyone, including yourself, that hasn’t been done by many others, many times throughout time. Of all the ways that you are unique, how you have fucked up is not one of them.
But here’s the deal – you can live in fear of that stuff, running from it, hiding from it, but as you run and hide from it you are actually making it real.
It may only be an illusion but as long as you give it the power to affect the course of your decisions, you are making those fears an engine of your life; the exact opposite of what you intended!
Are you willing to love yourself no matter what?
What if you are a coward? Are you willing to love yourself anyway?
What if you are a loser? Are you willing to love yourself anyway?
What if you are a failure? Are you willing to love yourself anyway?
What if you are (fill in the blank)? Are you willing to love yourself anyway?
You grew up or now have relationships where you experience conditional love; love on the condition that you are nice, or kind, or do the dishes, or don’t have an opinion, or only smile, or keep quiet, or keep arguing, or never give in, or never give up. You know how that feels. You know what that does to your confidence, to your inner-peace.
Are you willing to try something new?
To stop trying to fix yourself, and go ahead and love yourself As Is?
Can you do this scientific experiment, and see what loving yourself As Is, 24/7, for 7 days does to your digestion, breathing, sleeping, shoulders and even your relationships?
Your turning within will turn the world around, in many great ways.
©Copyright Delia Yeager, January 2015